Serial baby killer Kathleen Folbigg has told an inquiry into her convictions she believed a supernatural power took three of her four children away.
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Caleb, Patrick, Sarah and Laura all died in the decade from 1989, aged between 19 days and 19 months.
Folbigg was jailed for at least 25 years in 2003 after being found guilty of killing them.
In an October 1997 diary entry, when Laura was two months old, Folbigg wrote: "Wouldn't have handled another like Sarah. She saved her life by being different."
The 51-year-old mother gave evidence at the NSW Coroners Court on Tuesday that a belief was "ingrained" in her that there were "things going on beyond my control".
"'She saved her life by being different' is my hope and dream that Laura being different would have saved her life. But in the end, it didn't," Folbigg said.
Former NSW District Court chief judge Reginald Blanch QC, who is presiding over the inquiry, asked: "Are you saying to me that you believed that there was some supernatural power that took the other three children away from you, and you were concerned that that same supernatural power would take Laura away from you, and that she saved her life by being different on that basis?"
Folbigg replied: "Yes, along those lines."
She denied suggestions put to her by barrister Margaret Cunneen SC, representing her ex-husband Craig Folbigg, that "homicidal rages" or "psychological mood swings" made her smother her babies to death.
She said a January 1997 diary entry about having done "terrible things" due to stress didn't mean she'd killed her first three children.
"It's a broad spectrum of things that I am using the word 'terrible' for," she said on Tuesday.
"It could be me placing my child down to let her cry for even 30 seconds - that's a terrible thing, in my view."
But Ms Cunneen noted Folbigg described her father's murder of her mother as "selfish and unthoughtful" and "a stupid mistake" in other entries.
When Folbigg questioned the relevance of that comparison, her ex-husband's barrister said she was trying to get "into her lexicon" and use of words.
Folbigg said she believed her moods affected "everything" including her children who "died and decided they didn't want to be with me anymore".
Ms Cunneen said: "Of course, you know, that babies don't decide whether or not to live?"
Folbigg replied: "At that stage in my life, I did not know that."
"My concerns were almost paranoia," she said.
Folbigg in February 1997 wrote: "My guilt of how responsible I feel for them all haunts me. My fear of it happening again haunts me."
She rejected Ms Cunneen's suggestion she only felt guilty because the children died at her hands.
Six of her diaries before the inquiry were used by prosecutors in past court proceedings. Five other diaries are unaccounted for.
Folbigg recalls throwing one of them out but denies it contained incriminating material.
Barrister Chris Maxwell QC, representing the director of public prosecutions, on Monday accused Folbigg of minimising the meaning of her writings and providing farcical explanations.
Mr Blanch will prepare a report on the inquiry's results for the NSW governor.
Australian Associated Press
